Growing up I attended many AA meetings with my parents. They had both been sober for many years before they met and married. Yet, they kept on attending meetings to keep their commitment to sobriety, and help new comers. When most people think of Alcoholics they think of drunks or people who can’t get their life together. Others think it’s something to joke about when a friend of their’s drinks too much.
When I think of Alcoholics I think about the people I love most in this world. I think about the people who have loved and supported me and helped me become the person I am today.
There is a saying in AA that goes, one day at a time. This is a phrase that I’m glad to have known my whole life. When looking at what seems like an unbeatable task, what may seem like an impossible circumstance, or trying to overcome a difficult time that life throws at me, I can take it one day at a time.
As I shared previously, I have recently started working at the mermaid house. It’s been much more difficult than I anticipated. To start I’ve already had scheduling conflicts between this new job and nannying. Eight hours on my feet is something I’m having to get used to too. Then there’s the language barrier. While I have come a long way in my German skills since I arrived in May, I’m still far from perfect. There have been many times in the last week when someone says something to me in German and I don’t understand a single word. One example of this is an elderly man approached me while I was making drinks and said… I thought, “Toll lattes,” which translated means “Great Lattes!” I thought, “Yeah, I must be doing a great job!” Only then to realize as he said it again that he was really saying, “toilette,” which means Toilets. Needless to say, I felt stupid.
Thinking about living like this for the next year or even the next month seems like a mountain in front of me. I’ve had to remind myself to not get too stressed, and to just take a step back and take this new chapter, one cup at a time. I can make one more latte. I can take one more order, in a language I can barely understand. I can sit on a train one more time . I can play outside in the cold one more day. I can stand on aching feet for one more hour.
If, like me, you’re looking forward at an unbearable future, or year, or month, or week, take it one day at a time. One task at a time. Suddenly the mountain in front of you won’t seem so big. Then before you know it you’ll be thriving again!